A Bad Friday

I did something really stupid today. And I am sad.

Feel like tearing the book apart and burn it.

I am a very practical person and I always(only) do the "right" things.

Meaning ; not criminal ; do things with approval of other people, approval of myself, things under my principle - the right thing. Adding with bringing happiness to myself and others.
Many people said that we must make our own effort to strike for ; either something which is possible, impossible, belong or not to us. I seldom do that. Throughout my life, I always try my best before things happen, and the outcome always satisfy me. You can call this as LUCK. I do not fight over or beg for things do not belong to me or fight after things had happened. This is not me.

I do not like to stress myself for something unreachable. "Make impossible possible" - 5 years back I might buy this but now NO. I believe possible when I think it is possible - not you.I rather lay low and let the destiny master my life. But this doesn't show that I do not know how to put effort on works, just that I am not stubborn over impossibles. And I want to live smart. When I was younger, I always struggle with stress - Now that I've learned to manage expectations in order to get rid of stress. Expectations needed but minimize them.

How smartly you handle your life/tactics, you can never forget the principle of your life. Do not get too stubborn over it but never flush them inside the toilet bowl.

But today- I break the rules. I put my feeling at risk, I played my own feeling.

I failed doing them TODAY. Even so, this does not mean that you are better than me.

If I have higher EQ - this post never exist and today is a Good Friday.
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