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Almost 3 weeks since I came home. Life changes a lot. And sometimes I still can't believe that I've graduated. I don't have to go back to Moscow anymore.

I do feel young. Especially when parents around, I feel needless being the decision maker.

I never blog. One of the reason is being home. Sometimes when you have nothing to do, merely sitting in the living room, I just feel good being home. And I have no intention to even go online. I am still adapting my summer holidays like every other summer break I had. I don't treat home as my routine. YET. So when I get to rest home like now, I feel extremely good.

Moscow is my work, home is my vacation. But I realized that sooner or later, home is where I should do my routine. I have to work just like going to school in Moscow for 6 years. I might start writing again when I have dinner or party just like what I did 6 years in Moscow. Just like my routine life in Moscow.

I am not gonna mention what I'd done in these 3 weeks. But life is good. Life is definitely treating me perfectly!

Now that I understand why Muscovites never blog when they are homed. And I am now one of them.

H.O.M.E

FINALLY I AM HOME. AFTER 6 YEARS.
I DOUBT IF HOME IS THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG TO =p

Kubi is still traveling XD XD XD

Around Moscow, St.Petersburg, Paris, few cities in Scotland, around Nederland . . . Today I went to Volendam, Marken, Windmill villages ~ Still gonna stay in Nederland for few more days before leaving to England! Gonna visit few cities in England and then Germany, back to Moscow and then Dubai and HOME !!!

Even though most of the countries/cities I'd been twice or more but it's okay. I had a lot of fun, especially when mom is around and I love road trips!

Sad thing is that weather turned out to be bad these few days and didn't able to take good photos. And . . . so sad when I found out that I'd been to more than 30-40 cities in the world but I own only less than 10 fridge magnets. HOW SAD!

Looking forward for more road trips! Hear from me soon!

OH YEAH ! I MET NEDERLAND FOOTBALL team today in Amsterdam! Went through the canal parade, saw them closeeeee up ! ! ! HEHE. Blog about it soon XD

ONE WORD

JUST ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE MY LIFE NOW : BUSY. BUSY, BUSY AND BUSY.

Insomnia

Gosh unable to sleep whole night ! AGAIN ! ! !
Don't know what's happening, I really can't sleep.
Exams are over, no stress and still I am having insomnia, even worst than before exam.

Gonna have interview in an hour time. I am a lil' nervous. But wanna finish it soon!

I am so so so so so sooooooooooo busy with the graduation work and my packing! I packed 89kgs already, can you believe me? GOSH, I am really crazy. And I have 90 more kgs to pack!

Thank god I have juniors, they offered me 90kgs goodness! And 25 more kgs from other friends. I am really grateful to have them when I need a hand! And I actually need more hehe.

I guess I should get ready now. Today itself, I have a handful list of things to do.

I need strength!

Spectacle Lenses

Sometimes I really do think I have strabismus. Convergent. I either overlooked or unrecognized objects.

Besides having hypertension, sorta genetically they have eye problems. Not only family close to me, but other family too. My mum has dry eyes and mild strabismus too. And I really think glasses help her a lot. Spectacle lenses help to eliminate the need for excessive accommodation with its associated convergence excess, so it permits the two eyes to see as a unit even though they may not be properly anatomically oriented - this is what I read online but how true it is, you tell me. What about treating surgically?

I hope if I needed help one day, I will be treated perfectly well. Eyes are really important. I don't want to get inherited if I can choose.

I am up to this topic because I webcam-ed with mummy today and she looked over my recent pictures and told me that I might have such problem. I told her once last year that I have serious problem with my eyes. I tend to overlook objects and diplopia, maybe my eyes were forced for excessive accommodation. Then I stop wearing contact lenses and start wearing spectacle lenses. Thank god my eyes are okay after a few weeks and double vision no more.

I really should consider wearing spectacle lenses more =)

One thing I am really curious. I don't know why people think strabismus is a funny disease. I mean they laugh. They mean it. Whenever they see people with convergent eyes, they laugh. Instead I feel sorry for them. They didn't want it.

I am just so emo about eyes now. Haha.

You thought.

I looked at this page for a while and I didn't know what to write. I have so many things in my mind now, heaps of things to be done yet I have so little time.

I am unable to express myself in words now.

I was requested to post up the photos of items on sale from a few interested buyers since last 2 weeks, I didn't do it until today. I posted more than 40 items in an hour, and more than half are gone now. I am glad. I really am. Hopefully I don't have any leftovers before my graduation.

I didn't go for electives today. Again. So far I'd been to only once. Hopefully sum of 3 by this Friday so that I will be able to get zachut for therapy elective. I went for a tour to our graduation hall today, had meeting with people in charge. My first time there. It wasn't as disappointing as what I've heard so far. Place is rather small, hall is rather compact but I think the parents will sorta like the Russian style building ~ Dom Uchebni.

Financial wise, we didn't choose a better hall. Well the story does not summarize in one simple sentence like this. Long story. Like I said Russia is a pain! So, we accepted the hall they have to offer. Less hassle, no headache. I know so many of them were disappointed, trust me we are doing our best =) You know it is hard to fight with them plus not everyone is willing to pay for a graduation ceremony. Not as easy as you thought. Anyway, I think the hall is rather pretty despite it is old and compact, hopefully the parents gonna like it average.

Other than hall, the yearbook team is coming to the end soon. Hopefully by next week, everything will be done and ready for printing. I pray hard for everything gonna be okay. I am sure we are to be blame if anything bad happens. That's human nature regardless to how much time you'd sacrificed. We knew it when we take the job =)

Right, tomorrow I will be going to elective and then hopefully bowling after that? Yeah hopefully! I needa call home soon. Time is not allowing these few days and many things happening back home. Hopefully everything gonna be okay by the time I call. I always tell people I am not religious, but I can assure you that I am a believer. There are thousand or zillion times when we need prayers.

Night peeps!

I am the next

I wanna blog. First thing in my mind when I was on my way back from hospital is to blog. Oo'man I just wanna blog. I stared at the blank post page for a while and I can't think of anything I wanna write about. I am tired. Exhausted I suppose. I didn't work like a bull yesterday nor study like a mad girl. I slept as usual but less 3 hours compare to the routine me. 12 - 3 =9 hours. And I am exhausted.

I can imagine how am I gonna work in future, and every time I think of the nurse waking me up, I laugh. You know why if you were to wake me up. So, I have nothing much to say now and I gotta off to bed. Till I recharge my energy I will blog.

OH yeah ~ end of another week and posting! Next week gonna be my FINAL week. Final week OOOoooo'MAN ~ Final! I am happy because I don't have to go to class anymore. I have the feeling that I have been psyching myself to miss Moscow. I will definitely miss my study life but the problem is that too many people come to me and tell me how much they miss Moscow and their carefree life, it psyches me a lil.

Anyway, I am really start missing my carefree life already!

Labor Day

Today had a day-off replacing Labor day which fall on last Saturday. I went out last 2 days, Saturday and Sunday, had a lot of fun window-shopped LOL =p You know it is NOT fun to window-shop ... at all. Actually I was looking for a black sandal I can wear for my coming annual dinner. Damn. I don't have a proper apparels for this year. And I am kinda like don't wanna waste money buying something expensive yet I dislike. I just don't like getting something in hurry for a purpose. Like getting a black sandal just for the sake of the annual dinner and I will never wear it for second time. It happens to me many times. And I learned from mistakes.

And yeah I didn't buy one. Those that I eyed on, well needless to say they are expensive. I don't know man. I just don't feel like going. Haha. I have signs of getting old LOL =p Still remember I wore whole set of gold-apparels last year, from tiny to big ones, the dress I bought for 2 or 3 years back I don't remember but I didn't wear it until last year. It wasn't a superB dress but a special one. I like everything special. And this year I am gonna suck arse. Can I just wear my last year's golden sandal on my black dress? DAMN. No fucking idea why I bought a black dress last year. I told ya' I hate buying stuff in hurry and for a purpose. I don't have much time searching for a nice dress when I was in US. And to have something better than nothing, I grabbed it even though it is not cheap at all. I seldom adore black. Not never but rare rarely. I am burning my money in anger.

Oh yeah, instead of black sandal I bought another pair of leather shoes (again)! I am just so into vintage brown leather shoes lately. I'd been eye-ing on this pair for some time. Danbo just complained that we don't have any more space for shoes. I am not a shoe addict. I place them nicely, every pair in their own boxes and I wipe them all every time they served me out. Well, not a disease but haha I don't know. I can tell I am a lover. I love everything belongs to me. That is why if you were to buy 2nd hand stuff from me, I assure you my stuff will be like new ones! Not only clothes or shoes, even books and electrical stuff. LOL =p And I guess this is also one of those reasons why people seldom borrow stuff from me, to be exact, dares to borrow. But you know who you guys are, I do borrow my stuff even new stuff which I never use before. I am a lover XD Yet to be a perfectionist. I am not virgo. LOL =p

I am so boring now. Shall I bake or shall I sleep? Weather is not helping! Later in the evening I will be having yearbook meeting, to be frank it is boring. I mean to make a yearbook. And frankly, many times I think why we are doing it while others just sit there waiting for graduation and even some just love complaining doing nothing. You guys just helped for not complaining! Oh yeah, the yearbook pictures . . . you guys gonna look kinda big. Haha I mean the size of the pictures are kinda big LOL so don't start complaining how ugly you look like in your pic. I myself look like a fat arse. Wuahaha XD

I AM SO BORING ! ! ! And lazy. I did not even blog about my new toy. I promised rubbish.

Sunday Day

Morning peeps! Sunday 25/04/2010 and Moscow just snowed !
I believe this is the final show ( oh I typed show instead of snow)
touching down the ground of Moscow.
Snow storm always happen a few days before winter ends.
The wind blows 29km/hour today and yesterday it was 49km/hour (gosh!)
Even though there might be some pseudo-spring week before,
it is normal. Just like some believers said ;
A dying man will have pseudo-recovery days before he breathes his last.
It happens every year.
And I hope this is the end of winter.
If it continues to snow after May, I seriously will think of 2012.
So, the purpose of this post is to tell you guys that
I've just recorded my first HD video using my cute (yet stylish) lil' monster.
I will tell you guys about it !

Have a great Sunday!

What about muffins for today?

I am tweeting

Hey peeps! A lazy friday night, here I am updating my blog again XD I am currently so up to twitters. Not my first day logging in. I signed up for months or maybe 2 years ago I don't remember myself. And I seldom tweet because I find it so useless tweeting myself and nobody gonna read or see what I am up to. And I don't even know if people or friends replied my twitters unless I am tweeting 24/7 and you know that's not gonna happen. Even now I don't tweet 24/7. But at least I found an advantage tweeting.

Well, I have seen so many people updating their FB so so frequently. I am already among those who FB 'quite' frequently but those people I mentioned they FB 20-30 times better than I do. I didn't say it is wrong to update your FB status so frequently but I find it a lil' pathetic when I came to read your status. I mean when you are at the top of my news feed. I don't usually click 'older post' to stalk all the status. So, sometimes when I am in the mood to FB, like updating my day. When I have so many things to tell in a day, I am afraid that I will sound pathetic too =p Thus, I found a new way to overcome my fear. Yes ~ It's to tweet! Top reason is that I don't have much followers in my twitters so I can tweet all I want and nobody gonna care, consequently I don't sound pathetic. I felt more like self-appraisals. And Alan you are right! LOL =p But who cares as long as I am comfortable with it. So, I am gonna continue tweeting and continue stalking myself XD =p I am not surprise if you ain't reading this far keke O_O

Alright, so one more week has just ended. 3 more weeks of classes *clap clap*. Then I will be having some electives, exams and I am gonna graduate. Again I poppycock about my graduation. Hee. Today I had my final day of Immunology posting. I amn't interested in immunology. I hated the whole week of the posting. It's been a while since I last attended such a boring and useless lecture. Oh not 1 lecture, lectures. Sitting inside the lecture hall, having nothing to do, nothing to read, nothing to talk about. Sit there for 2 hours then 40 minutes break and another 2 hours. Damn posting. I am glad it's over. And I don't have to waste my time traveling so far for such a useless posting. Today he asked us : How do you guys like and understand my lectures? Ex-U.S.S.R-ians : Of course we don't understand a shit. Lecturer : Clean answer. * wink *

Oh yeah, I am so excited now! One of the reason why I am still awake now, 3:10am. I am getting a new toy tomorrow! Hehe =p I will blog about it! As for now, I better off to bath and get some good sleep XD I am not gonna take part in the stupid gotong-royong for tomorrow morning. I keep my room and kitchen the cleanest ALL the time. So, I don't have to wake up 9am to 'show' them how I clean them 'again'. But Danbo gonna be working outside at the corridor =p

Night peeps!

Sixty 9

I facebook everyday. And I am kinda active in facebook too. I am not that kind who loves to hide. And in fact I have nothing to hide. So, most of the time my status in facebook is well updated. Counting days now has become one of my frequent routine. I didn't want to but my brain automatically set me into this shit.

Sixty nine days counting from now. 69 is really short but seems long to me (now). 69 days to my graduation is when I transform from a student to ____ I don't know who am I gonna be. Everyone thinks that I am so excited to leave my student life in 69 days. Oh no, don't get me wrong. I never never ever want this to end. How I wish I can be student forever. Study stress is nothing to be compared with work, financial, family and etc. Everyone has to move on.

What I am glad is that I am leaving Russia. I am counting excitingly 3 more weeks and 3 days for classes because I just don't like going to hospital anymore. I meant U.S.S.R's. Don't ask me why. I can have more than a thousand of reasons why I wanna leave Moscow for good. You can have a thousand too if you stayed here for 6 years. But I believe everything has its pros and cons. I know a few who really love Moscow but I will never be one of those. Never. I would love to come back to Moscow in future for holidays but if you want me to come back for studies even if you pay all my uni fees ~ ohh no thanks!

69 days will be much easier to pass if I don't have to go classes. Thus, as for now, I pray the 3 weeks and 3 days gonna end soon! I just can't wait ~ Russia has a supernatural power depressing your life.

I just dislike ~ Hiatus

I am sorry that I abandoned you for so long. Life is really busy lately. And this is not my only excuse. I am lazy. Plus apathy. Hopefully soon again I will update.

Time being, I am doing really well physically but mentally I am torn out ~ by depression. Sometimes, I feel really tough handling myself, my emotions and feelings. I am just so out of control.

But basically I am good. Yeah again physically I am. Having good sleep and good food. Despite having a lot of headaches about the pre-graduation thingy like certificate transcriptions for my O Level, A Level and M.D. ~ Conclusion, Russia is a pain! Addition ; about the bombing issues. Oh and the freaking dancing issues at my floor right outside my doorstep, but am not gonna even talk a word more about it here.

But all that what I've mentioned above, none of it can't be solve by money. Money is the root. People, money is the root! You have to accept this, you have to coincide that money is freaking important! At this point, if your heart tells you NO, well you are rich then! LOL =p No matter what you trying to explain now, how important happiness above money, how important is your family or friend, how important your religion is ~ well, nothing beats money okay. Without money, you can't even breath the next second, the only thing you can do is to hug altogether and die.

Okay. Chill. I don't know why the hell I am so up to money now. This topic never came across my blog ever. Weird me ~ Maybe it's because lately my life gone crazeeee with money-related issues. Hah that's why =p

Guess what, I have NOT even finish blogging about my CNY post haha! It's meaningless to post it anymore since it's already April now. But I'll just upload some pictures later =) If you are my frequent reader, of course you know my algorithm. Blame me not!

Cheers peeps! I am the one need to be cheered ~

Ninety Nine

Kubi is gonna reconstruct all her photo albums in FB, gonna update her kubi-bloggy again, gonna really really upload her USA travel pics, gonna get a new LX3 toy soon enough, gonna damn so work hard on her guitar, gonna do all her hotel bookings, gonna handle the graduation thingy *with care*, gonna handle her skin with superBBB lotsa moisturizer, gonna find ways to bring my loveliest stuffs back home, so gonna spend more time with friends and more outing, so so so gonna bake like there is no tomorrow . . . gonna explode soon with list of things need to be done ! ! !

I am such such such a blardy procrastinator, and I just can't afford to delay anymore ~ Time won't allow me after graduation, so I betta get my arse up! I just wanna finish all these unimportant tasks while I can ~ And out of all things I've mentioned, none of it related to my studies.

And oh YES! Study is NOT my main priority now !

NINETY NINE DAYS TILL MY GRADUATION ! ! !

I Shall Return

I should start blogging again after such a long hiatus. New semester started 3 weeks ago. So far, had one exam last week. Now I am gonna be free for at least 5 weeks till my next exam-posting. I didn't transfer any pictures till yesterday since after the last time I said I wanna blog about my outing during winter break in Moscow. Hopefully soon again I'll return =)

I am going through some hard times planning the Europe trip ~ my mum and I for this summer after my graduation. I have no idea where 'should' I go or better said should my mum be happy with. I have only Holland in my mind now since I've never been to Holland before.

Perhaps I am wasting lots of money visiting the same cities again and again, but sometimes just can't help. I guess this time I might again visit Paris for the 2nd and London for the 4th time? Thinking of Edinburg. Brussels too? Or maybe Switzerland again ? ? ? Hedek.

I actually have so many places in mind that I wanna visit, so many of them, but like I said this time it would be more appropriate choosing countries for my mum than myself. If I knew this gonna happen today, I should have save all the countries at my right-side bar on this blog for this summer. Now that I regretted for not visiting (countries which are more exotic not for my mum like . . . ) Greece, Eygpt, Africa, Siberia and etc etc and I have NO chance for all these, at least for the next few years. How sad.

Fashionholic, NOT Shopaholic

A SHOPAHOLIC CAN BE A FASHIONHOLIC.
FASHIONHOLIC 99.9% IS A SHOPAHOLIC.
BUT MOST SHOPAHOLICs ARE NOT FASHIONHOLICs.
IT MAKES A VERY BIG DIFFERENCE.
Do not confuse.

Sometimes, you named yourself ; A SHOPAHOLIC
Because said you spend and enjoy buying all the time BUT unfortunately
It does NOT mean that you know fashion and
you are definitely NOT a fashionholic.

So, spend wisely. Lets value the quality but not quantity.

And pity is that, some people ARE fashionholic
BUT can't help because god is fair Haha!
He will either bless you millions with a BIG FAT BODY or
A SUPERB SEXY BODY with a few bucks. Hah!

Enough quote of the day XD

Finally ~

Click Here.

Not gonna say more about the link Haha XD
Because previously I said too much and cursed too much LOL =p
Anyway, pray for the best and pray pray
and pray.
Government making a smart move =) NOW.
It's not confirmed BUT at least they proposed something better,
and most importantly the earlier proposal being rejected.
HAPPILY.
It is so true that when they said; prolonging the public service
will only produce more trainee but NOT doctors.

School reopen and classes started today.
Things moving alright.
Gonna have exam in 2 weeks time, end of posting.
19 weeks of posting ! Can't wait to end this semester. ( It just started =p)

Gonna blog when time allows XD
I am in good mood today! Heeee.

Oh MY Oh

Again and again and again.
I need to stop myself.
Feeling guilty. What's the purpose of winter sale?
I am guilty eying only on new arrival items. And bought mostly all new arrival items because they are so so so much more attractive. The worst part is that I 'felt' like I shopped for winter sales
-__- !!! but I actually didn't make use of winter sale at all.

BUT but but I did not regret because o.m.g I just love'em all.

I promised myself (now) that I am D.O.N.E with shopping, even though I have one more bloody item in my mind now. Only this one final-final-final item. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Why I am never empty-handed. Every time.

Hungry. Off ~

Oh MY

Oh My I bloody shopped again.
I don't mind the sales ending in 3 days time.
Com'on end it!

And I did something really stupid and crazy yesterday.
I stood on Moscow River for god sake.
I stood on a river. A frozen river.
It's NOT a lake or a pond peeps, a damn flowing river!
Its freaking cold outside!
Like -25C?
Peeps, don't do it when it's not cold, don't do it below -20C.
The frozen river can break ANYTIME!

Pictures gonna be up weekends =)
Going out to shopping mall again later.
And oh yeah, for the sake of Burger King.
Its like the FIRST ever Burger King in Moscow.
I don't even eat'em in Malaysia. But in Moscow, I would love to!

Shopping Spree vs My Job

I should be real excited with the title-above but haha I don't know myself. I am feeling usually superB normal without any excitement. January is a superB superB spending month. Bought a few lovely apparels I am totally in love with. One shopping day can finish your whole month allowance. Spending money is always easy but finding'em is rather hard.

*****

A bad morning news making me feeling uneasy now. The PSC proposed to extend the compulsory public service for doctors from three years to either five or ten years. Click here. This is ridiculous! The government's scholars need to work for government for 10 years as 'they' can accept and understand it because the government spent on them(it is like a contract for them) but for private students like us, I think its really unfair and they have no right of extending us just to keep us and make sure we don't work for private hospitals. But THEY are the government, said they have all the right doing whatever they want.

We do have choices. Like thinking how to keep the senior MO from not working for the private. Government can always find ways. Like giving more allowances or salary, but they rather extend the new ones. Working for long hours a day, 6-7 days a week and earning like 1 thousand dollar per month? Mcdonald's workers in the states earn better than a doctor does in Malaysia. But no matter how you disagree with them, no matter what you do, what you will do, IT IS useless. We are just a tiny-tiny lil thingy who are not suppose to voice out whatever shit. We, citizens are forever to be succumbed. We do NOT have liberty for anything. But to follow.

Once people told me, it is useless to migrate to other countries because you will never be the first citizenship in that country BUT staying in Malaysia 'as' a Chinese, I will never be treated as first citizenship too. I love my country but I am sad and disappointed.

How badly the students been complaining about the unfairness in Russia. How corrupted Russia is. Well here I would like to ask, which country is not corrupted? And is your country treating you fairly as a citizen. My answer is no. NO and NO.