I've a bad feeling

I have a bad feeling about my induction next week. I'll get to know which hospital I'll be posted at after Monday. I have a bad feeling that I might not get any of those 3 hospitals that I applied for. I don't know why but I just feel it.

Most of my friends gonna have their induction at PD and just a few of us got KL. I assumed they catogerize us according to our addresses, KL-ians ---> PD and vise versa.

I don't really care about the induction even though the fact is that most my friends gonna be at PD while I'll be at KL alone, what I do really care about is the hospital I am gonna be posted at.

I am really worried and I keep telling myself that I can't just leave KL.

I am a city girl. I can only pray hard.

GRADUATING CLASS OF 2010

I am traveling right now, lappy is not with me thus

I am unable to edit my pictures

and also time is not allowing me to blog.

Hence, I will only preview a few pictures of my graduation day

which was held on 30th June 2010.

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Insomnia

Gosh unable to sleep whole night ! AGAIN ! ! !
Don't know what's happening, I really can't sleep.
Exams are over, no stress and still I am having insomnia, even worst than before exam.

Gonna have interview in an hour time. I am a lil' nervous. But wanna finish it soon!

I am so so so so so sooooooooooo busy with the graduation work and my packing! I packed 89kgs already, can you believe me? GOSH, I am really crazy. And I have 90 more kgs to pack!

Thank god I have juniors, they offered me 90kgs goodness! And 25 more kgs from other friends. I am really grateful to have them when I need a hand! And I actually need more hehe.

I guess I should get ready now. Today itself, I have a handful list of things to do.

I need strength!

DR. Jr.

Officially I am done with final year. I am graduating in 8 days.

Am feeling really sick today. Stomachache, diarrhoea several times and vomited.

Dozing off now. Gonna blog tomorrow =) Night peeps!

Fifty Five

55 hours to go, I will end my medical school officially.
I should be studying now but I just can't get into the mood.
How I wish I can just go for exam without studying. I still will pass I guess. The matter is only how did you pass yourself.
I wish someone can talk and chat with me now, I am so so so boring.
Family back in Malaysia sleeping, Danbo's sleeping, muscovites are either sleeping or studying. I am the only one - workless.

I didn't want to sleep tonight. I wanna study, seriously I do wanna study. I am so slow. I need to catch up, so much to catch up. But the evil side of me keep telling me not to worry because everything is just going to be alright.

It is football season now. Danbo watches 3 matches a day. Thumbs up to him ! He never started a shit yet, I am amazed yet he felt no stress haha. At all. Kubi before dating him and after has so so so much difference. I used to be . . . a book worm! But now I am a lepak-queen =p How I wish I can have half of his EQ. Well, I actually love the better me now. At least I live a simpler life and I am happy.

I wanna call home, time is ticking so slowly. Wanna talk to mommy. Oh, I used to spelled mummy but now I think mommy is nicer. Danbo influenced me, he likes everything with round shape. Said I have a round eyes, round nose, round face, and football is round too. His favorite number is 8. He seriously loves everything round! But he dislikes round-fat-flabby-fair woman LOL =p He is a perfectionist! And I am unnoticeably following is trend =p The feeling is perfect when you can perfect the imperfections. The bad side is, people might think you have high expectations, but to me, I really think expectations are needed in life.

And . . . Danbo's dream is to be a plastic surgeon L O L =p
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . . . Let me tell you about my idea of him being a plastic surgeon in future post =p

Second and last

First paper done. Second coming next Monday. My last exam in Moscow, my final final final exam as undergraduate medical students. I haven't started much. Just four more days left but I didn't feel it yet.

Instead my cooking mood is on again! Even though I didn't update any food post lately but I do still cook everyday. Maybe not something too extraordinary. Cooking used to be one of my hobby but maybe because I am leaving Moscow soon, leaving this room, this hostel and leaving my lovely oven and stove, I rarely cook anything extraordinary.

Anyway I am gonna clear up my fridge tomorrow and gonna have a food feast finishing all the stored food/meats. I do wanna cook tomorrow, I already have few dishes in mind. I need more chinese food. Lately been eating too much of fried/bbq-ed/spicy/and hot food. I need to cool down a lil =p

While revising my fridge, I saw a lot of essences left in my fridge. Rose flavor, red coloring, pandan coloring/flavor, vanilla and also damn it ~ I have a durian essence ! ! ! Hahaha . . . Been thinking what to do with it. And made up my mind that I shall bake a few muffins. Danbo dislikes durian, I guess I gotta give a try, bake a few muffins and glurp all by myself =)

Ten Days

Ten more days mommy will be here, in Moscow.
Tomorrow is my first paper, MCQ paper for my final.
Finally I am sitting my 2nd last paper in Moscow.
Mix of feelings.
I have so many things to do besides exam. Really.
I know I haven't studied much but
I hope tomorrow will be good.
Please be good. I plead.
=)

Zero

It's really weird to blog during midday. Especially when I just got up from bed and when the sun gleamed on the window. I read blog as usual. I read people's blog as usual. And today I felt so much depression on myself after reading blogs.

More than 60% of my friends are either doctors or medical students. I love to read blogs because I dislike to ask. I don't usually ask when they have no intention to tell. And what would a doctor blogs about? Yeah about their dull working life, how they manage their patients and their diseases and also how they got screwed up by the specialists.

I am more interested on how they manage their patients and diseases because hell knows working life is always dull and boring. I felt myself being zero. Yeah ZERO. I am really envious that they were trained in a better medical schools. They were trained so well before starting their job. And yet I am in a state where I sometimes do not understand what they are talking about.

One conclusion I can make is that RSMU sucks no matter how hardworking you are, how good you've memorize all the theories and how good you've scored for your finals. Because we just don't practice. We never practice. And another disadvantage is that we work for Russia. We study in Russia. And so Russian grads are classified under 3rd grade doctors, well we deserve the grade.

I didn't say that being a Russian grad unable to shine in your own way. I didn't mean that a Russian grad can never be a good doctor. I am just clear that I have to learn in a very hard way. Very. I am starting my medical school again when I start working. I have to go through hard times.

I really think that RSMU should be unrecognized. It is better for you to work and study hard for your A Levels. With your best results, I am sure now there are a lot of affordable medical schools in Malaysia. At least, you will be train better locally. And also RSMU is not cheap nowadays. During my time, I mean 6 years ago, US$5000 per year is a good deal. 30 thousand for M.D. where to get?

Well as I'd mentioned, if I were to choose my life again, this will be my life. But if you have a better option, never consider Russia. Unless you wanna work in Russia, RSMU is your choice.

-_______-

I suck at MCQ. I always do better in oral or writing. I have more than 2000 MCQ questions to study for final. Gosh, less than 10 days! I am in deep shit. I remembered I studied my surgery MCQs like 3 weeks before exam last semester but now I have less than 10 days only and I have more than 2000 questions. I am so so so dead.

So far, I studied 200 questions. 10% of the sum. I just finished 65 episodes of series. Just. SHIT. I really gotta start studying. No kidding! Besides I still have writings and oral =(

My mood is just not right. 22 more days till my graduation and 19 more days till I see mummy. Why can't they just give the final right after our classes and give us a longer break before graduation so that we can prepare better for exam and also our convocation.

I am just thinking of going into depression again. Heeeeeee. Can't believe myself marinating meat for steamed glutinous rice with chicken a.k.a loh mai kai at 2:45am. Yeah am gonna make it tomorrow. I didn't cook well lately. Well you can see that I never post a shit about food. I feel so much like cooking =) So tomorrow gonna be my cooking day!

I have so many plans. I don't know if I have time. I wish I have! I wanna go picnic, museums, zoo, etc etc etc . . . At this very second, damn I can only remember my plans but not exam -_______-

I really need more time !

Fourth Of June

Time is ticking really fast. 25 more days till my graduation! Oh to be more exact my very own convocation ! ! ! I've never attended any convocation in my life, not my parents', not my sister's, not my brother's, not my friends'. As far as I remembered, once in my life time was attending Danbo's cousin brother's convocation 2 years back at MMU. Anyway, I have nothing much to say about other people's convocation. I am soon gonna have my own convocation!

6 years in Russia, passed really really fast. I still remember my first flight to Moscow, sat next to a belgian guy, until now I can still remember his face and our conversation. We had a photo. And my first time living away from home, thousand miles away, moved into a tiny square block with 4 other friends. I gained from 48kg to 57kg. I ate few bars of chocolates a day, eating cereal and milk every night before sleeping. Studied biology together with my block-mates, revised a day before exam and I freaked out because I cannot remember a shit. Moved on to 2nd year, had my first trip Europe trip to Italy, and summer I went to Dubai. I moved on every year, visiting more and more countries. More and more continents. Last summer, I spent my summer break in states. Counting from now, it has been more than 1 year and 9 months since I met my family. My longest away from home. All the goods and bads throughout these 6 years, well if I were to choose again my life, this will be my life =)

I am not sure what is gonna happen in future. What is gonna happen in 3 months time. This month is my final month being a student. The final month of my care-free life where I don't have to think where my allowances come from, because I have daddy. 3 months from now, I have to live on my own. I have to start working. In a hospital. I have to start paying my own debts for houses, cars, etc etc and etc. This is what I am afraid of all these while. Yes, the commitments. I am never good with commitments.

But I am leaving Russia for good. Yeah, I have to stay positive, I am leaving Russia for good. I don't hate Moscow, but I just don't love Moscow enough. I miss home more. I love my home more. I wanna be at home more despite that I have to start earning my own life. I guess everyone has to go through this, and I don't have priority pass, just like you. I just can't imagine that I am already an adult, I have to take care of myself. My last sight of memory with my parents, we were having jokes, fun and cuddling each other. I am always like a small kid in their eyes. I just can't imagine how am I gonna talk to them 'like an adult'. I don't think I am ready yet. But I wonder how my parents gonna treat me as an adult when I get home this summer. Will they still cuddle and accept my stupid jokes and from a doctor? I really wonder. To them, doctor has to be serious and serious. Yes, I am serious when I work. You feel me if you ever worked with me. But at home, I never act like one.

I guess I am just not ready to accept that I am growing now. No longer a daddy girl. My younger brother is 4 years younger than me, and he is graduating this July too. He seems to be more mature. Both in thinking and in person, including his appearance keke. I do have personality disorder. Whenever my parents around, I am always like a kid. I didn't make this and I didn't control myself. And my 2nd elder sister just finished her master last month, and now she is waiting for her convocation and her entry seat for Phd. She works for LKW. Oh I remembered calling her yesterday asking for help. For your info, I am in charge in yearbook for my graduation and also as an event coordinator. To be frank, being an editor is not easy at all, especially when you are a medical student. I've never used photoshop so much before. Imagine, we have to work with graphic designs. Such a pain. And the printing company gave us so so so many problems, we couldn't blame them all because we are new. We didn't know that we have to bleed to size of the paper, we didn't know we need to use CYMX instead of RGB, we didn't know that graphic designers never use publisher, we never know that yada yada yada and yada . . . We went several times, editing again and again and again and thank god, we are done! Our yearbook is printing now. I am SO GLAD. And thanks to the handphone-ps-tutor from Miss Ivy hehe =p And now I just gotta wait and pray for a good outcome but we are ready to accept any criticism. Human just love to complain especially when they need to spend a little of their money.

Anything to do with cars, driving license or politics, I can ask my daddy. Anything to do with law, I can rely on my oldest sister, anything to do with designs either graphic or drawings, my 2nd sister is the best choice or both my brother-in-laws, anything to do with engineering I can talk to my brother, and anything to do with cookings, I have mummy, and anything they need to know about medical, I can advise them, anything about finance I guess my youngest brother can help in future? Heeeeeee. I just miss home so so so much. Just can't wait to touch the ground.

Went to bowling today right after the printing company. Danbo and I were quite exhausted dealing with the stuff we are handling now. I didn't play a lot today. I wasn't in a very good condition. Didn't have much spirits and my legs were not helping. Thus, I scored like shit. As usual, we go for pool after bowling, as usual only for 3-4 games. And again as usual, spent money on pancakes (Tepemok) and as usual non-stop buying groceries, my fridge gonna explode soon!

I promised myself to start studying for finals 3 days ago which was the first day of June. I failed. And now I am still day and night dreaming. Having my face mask on, I am blogging now and it is already 1 pass midnight. I need sleep. I still have plans. Not sure what but I am just not ready for books yet. Not so soon.

Oh yeah, I started selling my stuff since last week. Stuff like fridge, smartcooker, stove, oven, books, cupboards, etc etc. I am glad that almost everything sold off except for a few like slow cooker and rice cooker. My business wasn't bad at all. I didn't sell them at the corridor or through blogging, I just posted them in FB and goodness, half an hour most of my stuff are gone! I am so happy. And haha of course I am happy because I have money now XD Well, at least more than my monthly allowances, maybe twice? Heeeeeeee. But you guys don't try to rob me ok! XD I am just gonna use the money wisely like paying for my mum 's accommodation in Moscow and St.Pete !

Alright, need to wash off my mask and yeah I am just gonna pamper myself like princess for this final month! Read me everyday! Night peeps! Oh before that, hehe I wanna tell you that, this is only my 3rd time putting on a mask! Yeah in my whole life, 3rd time! My advise is that no matter how pretty you think you are, no matter how flawless you think you are, no matter how young you think you are, please do a mask! We are all aging. I don't use cleanser. Only if I put on a make up, I clean my face using a cleanser, or else, I think crystal clear cold tap water is really good!

End my med school

Wooooooooottttt . . . Tomorrow gonna be the final final final last last last day in medicine school. Before this, I was so excited and the excitement disappeared last few weeks and it came back this week, especially tonight!

Well, I don't know what to say. No matter how much I hated myself to be in Russia, in CCCP's hospitals, well I still do love my care-free life and my batch mates. I don't have much pictures to upload or to be more exact no picture to upload haha, I wish I have taken more pictures when I was in uni or hospitals.

But anyway, memories that matter. I hope I am not gonna miss my school life too much or too soon. Today we had the final photo session for our yearbook 2010' and I hope the outcome gonna be a good one. I would really love to thank to my batch mates for being so supportive, not all of them, but those who came, I really appreciate it.

So, let us all celebrate for our final day in medicine school tomorrow!

P.S : It is already midnight and yet I have a lot of things to do. I'll blog more often!

Finally ~

Click Here.

Not gonna say more about the link Haha XD
Because previously I said too much and cursed too much LOL =p
Anyway, pray for the best and pray pray
and pray.
Government making a smart move =) NOW.
It's not confirmed BUT at least they proposed something better,
and most importantly the earlier proposal being rejected.
HAPPILY.
It is so true that when they said; prolonging the public service
will only produce more trainee but NOT doctors.

School reopen and classes started today.
Things moving alright.
Gonna have exam in 2 weeks time, end of posting.
19 weeks of posting ! Can't wait to end this semester. ( It just started =p)

Gonna blog when time allows XD
I am in good mood today! Heeee.

Shopping Spree vs My Job

I should be real excited with the title-above but haha I don't know myself. I am feeling usually superB normal without any excitement. January is a superB superB spending month. Bought a few lovely apparels I am totally in love with. One shopping day can finish your whole month allowance. Spending money is always easy but finding'em is rather hard.

*****

A bad morning news making me feeling uneasy now. The PSC proposed to extend the compulsory public service for doctors from three years to either five or ten years. Click here. This is ridiculous! The government's scholars need to work for government for 10 years as 'they' can accept and understand it because the government spent on them(it is like a contract for them) but for private students like us, I think its really unfair and they have no right of extending us just to keep us and make sure we don't work for private hospitals. But THEY are the government, said they have all the right doing whatever they want.

We do have choices. Like thinking how to keep the senior MO from not working for the private. Government can always find ways. Like giving more allowances or salary, but they rather extend the new ones. Working for long hours a day, 6-7 days a week and earning like 1 thousand dollar per month? Mcdonald's workers in the states earn better than a doctor does in Malaysia. But no matter how you disagree with them, no matter what you do, what you will do, IT IS useless. We are just a tiny-tiny lil thingy who are not suppose to voice out whatever shit. We, citizens are forever to be succumbed. We do NOT have liberty for anything. But to follow.

Once people told me, it is useless to migrate to other countries because you will never be the first citizenship in that country BUT staying in Malaysia 'as' a Chinese, I will never be treated as first citizenship too. I love my country but I am sad and disappointed.

How badly the students been complaining about the unfairness in Russia. How corrupted Russia is. Well here I would like to ask, which country is not corrupted? And is your country treating you fairly as a citizen. My answer is no. NO and NO.

A New Start

A new start for me is the moment of ending every final paper of the semester. This semester is finally over. And next gonna be the final-final-final semester. Happy but sad at times. I am a girl who loves freedom. I really meant freedom! So I am not sure what's gonna happen after start working. I could not think more or blame more because I really am choosing the path myself. Being a hell-tortured doctor.

Today had my final paper Surgery. One of my favorite subject. And I love my exam today. It goes really well, excited, scary at times. MCQ was tough. Like the toughest after Physics, I had 5 years ago. When the examiner came out with a stack of papers for those who failed the MCQ, and start reading the names one by one, my heart was like gonna fall and tear apart. It was one of the scariest moment in my life. Because I thought I didn't do well. And Danbo told me he didn't too. When we both names are NOT called, I can't believe myself. We all screamed and hugged. So dramatic but its all the true moment of life lol. The oral part was pretty good. And I love my questions, I had 3 questions from Surgery, Endocrinology and Anaes hehe. Maybe my dream becoming a surgeon getting closer? Heeee. Doubt me not. But things do change.

OVER. A NEW START.

But the feeling of so near yet so far haunt my mind again and again. Regarding to the marking scheme of exams here, promise you getting a red or a blue diplome. And I didn't manage to get a red diplome because of 'an' extra 4, is like one fucking 4. And I know it clearly that its useless to get a red. But the feeling of so near yet so far strike me again. But I am proud of myself for maintaining my results with good grades. I am proud of myself getting all excellent marks in GOS exam even though I am not in the 'list' of red diplome. Studying in Russia is really EQ and mind-torturing! But again its over. Hoping that god will take away all my unwanted thinking and leave me a happy me =) Heeeeeee.

Do you remember him?
If you are my frequent reader you should know heeee.
MR. DANBO my love =p

Humdrum.Day

I was muddled by endless facts and diagrams, knowledges addled my brain. Stupid efforts I made, end up myself with a bleary mind. I have more than a few questions in my mind.

Why does human has a heart and why blood keep flowing in us? Wouldn't it be better if life can be improved by technologies, as in changing the world to a robotic-world. Robotic = no feeling = bad for you maybe or good for me or you I don't know. Nobody needa worry abt death and no doctors needa study about heart anymore. No emotions, no sensation, we might no longer feel happy but at the same time no longer feel pain or sad. No suicidal case in this world anymore because nobody that you need to care or to be cared.

If the creator (god or science, you choose) has decided to let heart beats in us, then why don't you create a book, ONE book with thousands or millions pages I don't mind - so that everyone can study the same one thing in same one book with a proper algorithm. No hassle. No confusion. Happy us. Happy me.

But facts really threw me. Best is to go bed and stop my machine. A bored day.

CSI

CSI - I never watch.

Oh Did I mention my first-April-paper is Forensic Science? I did not.

Did you guys study this subject in your medical course ? Included as well ?

Doubt. Wondering. Russian Language again me sucks.

Gun shot wound ~ Ma topic for tomorrow's exam

*****

Updated 09/04 5:00 pm : Kubi was de-luck. Luck no more - ran away from Kubi. Sob.
Plaksin vs Mcd. Plaksin vs Bah Kut Teh.

Hiatus

My first-exam-cycle has just started TODAY (FIMA) and thus Kubi gonna have a hard time studying + leaving the blogsphere for the next few weeks. This cycle requires me to study everyday and go for exam everyday. EVERYDAY. Until the end of the cycle which is 2 weeks after, I will get my exam grade from the average marks of everyday's paper. And after these 2 fecking week, I will be having another exam which requires me to sit the final at the end of the cycle, which is 2 weeks after. 2 weeks + 2 weeks = 4 weeks.

So so so the end my April . . .

But I will still blog once a while, especially when my brain gets de-function.

These 2-April-Papers are NOT the END YET. I will still have 3 more papers to sit end of the semester BUT BUT BUT time being, lets get rid of these 2 FIRST !

EXAM. SIEN. STUDY. SIEN. SLEEP. NO MORE. FC FEAST. NO MORE. KUBI. KANTOI.

Bed Time Story

I am already on bed and getting ready to doze off.

-My bed time story-

I came home really late today after class, around 18:30pm for one reason I shall not say now. Sacrificed my evening-sleep today. Blame to my laziness doing last minute job : patient history which is already in my list-to-do for the past 1 week. Besides blaming myself, the sleeping-goku must be blame too. A 2 person job (because we are sharing the patient history) done by 1, me the Kubi, because said he is "really" sleepy thus I allowed him to nap (HALOOO I am sleepy and tired too !) and end up spending 4 hours alone finishing it before midnight. This time it takes a bit longer than usual because the "copy and paste" job cannot work out due to my "rare-diagnosis", I have NO SAMPLE to copy haha! So, he(YOU) SHOULD FEEL GUILTY NOW.

I hope he is.
Nah, second thought, just give him a break haha!

Kubi can't wait for weekend ! ! ! Again a 3 days-weekend gonna be ! ! !
I just cannot freaking wait, at the same time, I have a whole long list-to-do.

I wanna BAKE MY WEEKEND ! ! !

A Lazy Day

Sleep in the evening is a must to my life since the first day I came to Moscow until now, I have been doing this for the past 4.5 years already. And I love evening-sleep. But sometimes when I can't control the sleep, duration scares me. To the maximum 6 hours and minimum 2 hours. When it comes to the maximum, I will not be able to sleep early that night -----> I will be loitering in the room for whole night, up until 1-2 hours left before class starts, I think : Oh, I better go sleep. The next day, I will be dozing the train off.

Today is a lazy day for me. And in fact, everyday is a lazy day for me. Who doesn't want to eat, sleep, hobby-ing, shopping plus a little bit of working in a everyday's life? I would be definitely the first one to put-up-my-legs to be a lazy-queen. I wish and needless to ask, I WILL NOT GET BORED (but only with cash-filling my wallet non-stop) with this kind of life ( because I have thousand hobbies =p).

Today not a bad day at all, class ended 12:30 noon which is far early expected by us, but not because she is generous, she is just the one who knows how to make full use of the(our) time and let us not do the waiting everyday which is a typical Russian's style. Students always ask for more. I always ask for more. Everyday 12:30noon go home, anyone? I want ! ! !

Edit : My swollen gum is aching me ! ! !

Fallen Sick

Kubi fallen sick. "Planned-task" failed.

Drinking plenty of water makes me feel even more sick! I am the type of person that you can hardly-screw-open my mouth for the sake of water and that is why I look dehydrated most of the time. Agree? Monotone skin, dry lips, peeling legs, and sometime greenish face & hand!
I am not kidding you. People... my friends, prove it to "them" I do look GREEN most of the time haha XD. Kubi is laughing... And a thin tiny green lady loosing few inches. When it comes to LOVE : I don't eat, he eats nothing. So hes thinner a few inches too. Excuses! He has no cooking-hand without Kubi, hes just too lazy.

Sighh. I AM SICK.

A new cycle this week and the same one in coming 2 weeks. Gynaecology, A specialist that I always afraid getting into it. Afraid of not blood or women, but the JOB. I believe most medical students feel interesting when it comes to this subject esp when you have so many hand-on practice job, but the more I am doing it, the more I am worry, I start liking Gynaecology. I have this thinking since I was in my Year 2 study, my first attachment in Gynaecology back in Malaysia which is quite interesting and fun. When I start to feel interest in this specialist, there is when I start to stop myself from "liking" it.

WHY?

I don't know why. But I just don't wanna be a Gynaecologist. And even once, I told my mum : "I always get what I said I don't want. Like swearing for not being a doctor when I was younger. So, make sure you whack me hard from behind when I tell you I wanna be a Gynaecologist years later". And thats not enough to wake me. Friends, please find some "jampi-master" IF one day you found me as a Gynaecologist.

Well, this is an exam-cycle subject. So I must get a little bit more serious on it by start or continuing my notes for exam. No matter how badly I don't want to get involve in this specialist BUT I am aware that I still have to work in this department for 4 months after I graduate. 4 months at least. 4 months for good IF they decided to throw me to other department for my longer Medical-Officer servant.

OK. Kubi is sick. Better get on bed after medication.

P.S = Now I notice, I've never blog about "My Thots" for more than 3 months!
And something comes into my mind when I was surfing some famous bloggers lately, is that, the famous bloggers are not about food/recipe/travel/medicine BUT a full time LIFE-BLOGGER. You know, a blog where a blogger write about her /his own life everyday, I mean EVERYDAY life, like how many times of constipation they have, how many people annoys them each day and etc etc...
Why other people get so interested in some other people's life? Thats the miracle of blogging ? ? ?

04:00 ---> My nose TOTALLY blocked ! Unable to sleep =(
05:15 ---> When I can't sleep, my brain starts to generate numerous funny but weird yet unanswered questions. Study Dilemma.
06:00 ---> Slapped myself to bed.