When I was younger . . .

I am quite bored with my current skin. Been using it for a while already. I didn't want to change it because I don't want to waste my time editing all the layouts again. Hmmm . . . this skin is still pretty cute right? I wonder how can I wider the margin of my skin. Some blogs I read, they have really wide margin from left to right, you can read a bigger font and also view a larger image. I just don't know how to do it. Plus I am lazy. Normally you tend not to change anything from your routine. What to do, I get bored so easily. I need new stuff all the time. But I really think with a wider margin, my blog gonna look better. I've been using 10 inches lappie for 5 years already, I am really bored with it. Quite awesome when I get to online with my friend's lappie with 15-17 inches. I am bored with my routine =(

Oh it is 2:30 am now and goodness I am studying! Well, I tried concentrating whole day, even though my concentration did not reach more than 50% but at least I am studying right. At least even if I wasn't concentrating too much, I was just looking, by the vision, I still see something, read something. Better than nothing!

I am still hoping for a picnic. Sigh the weather is just not good. Rainy days for whole week. In fact nearly 2 weeks already. I didn't get to hang out. But room is kinda cooling and perfect for sleeping! Room is less dusty during rainy days. Talking about dust, sigh my guitar is so dusty. I mean my guitar bag. I rarely play. I suck at guitar man. I really need to start playing again. As I've already made up my mind playing a birthday song for my mum 2 days right after we got back home from Europe trip! Shhhhhh . . . a secret =)

She will gonna love it and she never know that I play guitar. She must be really surprise because I don't think she ever thought of her own kids capable of playing any musical instruments. The 3 girls at home disappointed her so so so many times because we refused to learn organ when we were younger, or better known as pipe organ. I never practice at home, I played only during classes. And once, my teacher scolded me so badly and I cried. I remembered she hit my hand on the organ. And I ran back home and told my daddy that I got beaten up with violence. L O L. I did it on purpose because I just hate playing instrument so much.
My daddy was so so so angry and he went to the Yamaha musical school and scolded the teacher, paid of the remaining school fees. A month after that incident, the musical school closed down. L O L. I guess my daddy had something to do with this =p I was only 7. And I played on a glass-made organ. The organ is so pretty. 10 years after, I regretted. How I wish I can play on a keyboard now. But, never too late to learn. I always wanted to learn, if I have time, but one thing for sure, I need a teacher ! =)

You thought.

I looked at this page for a while and I didn't know what to write. I have so many things in my mind now, heaps of things to be done yet I have so little time.

I am unable to express myself in words now.

I was requested to post up the photos of items on sale from a few interested buyers since last 2 weeks, I didn't do it until today. I posted more than 40 items in an hour, and more than half are gone now. I am glad. I really am. Hopefully I don't have any leftovers before my graduation.

I didn't go for electives today. Again. So far I'd been to only once. Hopefully sum of 3 by this Friday so that I will be able to get zachut for therapy elective. I went for a tour to our graduation hall today, had meeting with people in charge. My first time there. It wasn't as disappointing as what I've heard so far. Place is rather small, hall is rather compact but I think the parents will sorta like the Russian style building ~ Dom Uchebni.

Financial wise, we didn't choose a better hall. Well the story does not summarize in one simple sentence like this. Long story. Like I said Russia is a pain! So, we accepted the hall they have to offer. Less hassle, no headache. I know so many of them were disappointed, trust me we are doing our best =) You know it is hard to fight with them plus not everyone is willing to pay for a graduation ceremony. Not as easy as you thought. Anyway, I think the hall is rather pretty despite it is old and compact, hopefully the parents gonna like it average.

Other than hall, the yearbook team is coming to the end soon. Hopefully by next week, everything will be done and ready for printing. I pray hard for everything gonna be okay. I am sure we are to be blame if anything bad happens. That's human nature regardless to how much time you'd sacrificed. We knew it when we take the job =)

Right, tomorrow I will be going to elective and then hopefully bowling after that? Yeah hopefully! I needa call home soon. Time is not allowing these few days and many things happening back home. Hopefully everything gonna be okay by the time I call. I always tell people I am not religious, but I can assure you that I am a believer. There are thousand or zillion times when we need prayers.

Night peeps!

One Life, Make It Count

The above title was taken from the concert I went last week, which was held by a group of medical students involving one of their church activity. Well, I was invited by some friends and they motivated me to go, regardless to religion but for the sake of de-depressing my life or to be more exact, to appreciate my life.

APPRECIATE YOUR LIFE.

I am not happy today. Do not ask me why. I am not at liberty to story-tell about it. But this entry is related to what had happened to my surrounding, the people around me, the people I care and I love, TODAY.

How many times have we heard of people learning/ starting to appreciate their life and "living like there's no other tomorrow" after a life-threatening event? And what I felt is that, they are lucky enough to have a new chance or a second to appreciate their life.

But why do we have to wait until our lives or the lives of those dear to us are threatened before we take notice of the joy around us? I am not talking about taking sad aspect to our lives and trouble ourselves from thinking something which is unnecessary or becoming a worry-wart, I am just trying to say that we DO have time everyday just to value what we have and appreciate the facts that we are alive today.

You can do something extraordinary, like this :

Since I am the one who enter this post, I shall be the first- to know how to value my life, and start appreciating my life from now onwards. Don't get me wrong - It is not like I have never appreciate my life, its just that I can be someone more, do something more, and treat myself more lively.

There are few things I've suggested myself (AND YOU) to do'em everyday, there goes my list :

1) Every night before you sleep, list 5 things you are most grateful of the day. They must not be something "great or extraordinary", they can be the simplest things you feel like the food you ate today, the friend you walked home after class, or the blog you entered just now.

2) Have a cuddle. From your parents, brothers, sisters, boyfriend, girlfriend, friends or if you can't find anyone, hug your toys. If you do not have any, I can lend them to you. Cuddle them often.

3) SMILE. That's all it takes - Simply smile occasionally even no one is there to see it ! But do not over-do it.

4) Wear something you like - Open your wardrobe, appreciate every single piece you own, wear them! Wear them rather than leaving them stored for rare "special occasion". I call this Kubi-Disorder. I must learn doing this else I shall stop buying, stop piling clothes.

5) Call your family, relatives and friends, chat about unimportant things. I prefer email.

6) Eat & drink slowly. Feel the texture of your tongue. Stop doing things when you are tired, stretch your arms and legs. Feel the muscles relaxation.

7) Notice the nature. Simply peep outside the window for sunrise or sunset. Simply feel the texture of snow. Simply love flowers and trees.

Even IF I can't do them everyday, I can DO ONE A DAY.

Simply appreciate your life every day ! ! !

P.S = This entry is based on the inspirations I've got from a site. Not Kubi-copyrighted but it does not matter as long as it works on me and you.

A Lazy Day

Sleep in the evening is a must to my life since the first day I came to Moscow until now, I have been doing this for the past 4.5 years already. And I love evening-sleep. But sometimes when I can't control the sleep, duration scares me. To the maximum 6 hours and minimum 2 hours. When it comes to the maximum, I will not be able to sleep early that night -----> I will be loitering in the room for whole night, up until 1-2 hours left before class starts, I think : Oh, I better go sleep. The next day, I will be dozing the train off.

Today is a lazy day for me. And in fact, everyday is a lazy day for me. Who doesn't want to eat, sleep, hobby-ing, shopping plus a little bit of working in a everyday's life? I would be definitely the first one to put-up-my-legs to be a lazy-queen. I wish and needless to ask, I WILL NOT GET BORED (but only with cash-filling my wallet non-stop) with this kind of life ( because I have thousand hobbies =p).

Today not a bad day at all, class ended 12:30 noon which is far early expected by us, but not because she is generous, she is just the one who knows how to make full use of the(our) time and let us not do the waiting everyday which is a typical Russian's style. Students always ask for more. I always ask for more. Everyday 12:30noon go home, anyone? I want ! ! !

Edit : My swollen gum is aching me ! ! !

Fallen Sick

Kubi fallen sick. "Planned-task" failed.

Drinking plenty of water makes me feel even more sick! I am the type of person that you can hardly-screw-open my mouth for the sake of water and that is why I look dehydrated most of the time. Agree? Monotone skin, dry lips, peeling legs, and sometime greenish face & hand!
I am not kidding you. People... my friends, prove it to "them" I do look GREEN most of the time haha XD. Kubi is laughing... And a thin tiny green lady loosing few inches. When it comes to LOVE : I don't eat, he eats nothing. So hes thinner a few inches too. Excuses! He has no cooking-hand without Kubi, hes just too lazy.

Sighh. I AM SICK.

A new cycle this week and the same one in coming 2 weeks. Gynaecology, A specialist that I always afraid getting into it. Afraid of not blood or women, but the JOB. I believe most medical students feel interesting when it comes to this subject esp when you have so many hand-on practice job, but the more I am doing it, the more I am worry, I start liking Gynaecology. I have this thinking since I was in my Year 2 study, my first attachment in Gynaecology back in Malaysia which is quite interesting and fun. When I start to feel interest in this specialist, there is when I start to stop myself from "liking" it.

WHY?

I don't know why. But I just don't wanna be a Gynaecologist. And even once, I told my mum : "I always get what I said I don't want. Like swearing for not being a doctor when I was younger. So, make sure you whack me hard from behind when I tell you I wanna be a Gynaecologist years later". And thats not enough to wake me. Friends, please find some "jampi-master" IF one day you found me as a Gynaecologist.

Well, this is an exam-cycle subject. So I must get a little bit more serious on it by start or continuing my notes for exam. No matter how badly I don't want to get involve in this specialist BUT I am aware that I still have to work in this department for 4 months after I graduate. 4 months at least. 4 months for good IF they decided to throw me to other department for my longer Medical-Officer servant.

OK. Kubi is sick. Better get on bed after medication.

P.S = Now I notice, I've never blog about "My Thots" for more than 3 months!
And something comes into my mind when I was surfing some famous bloggers lately, is that, the famous bloggers are not about food/recipe/travel/medicine BUT a full time LIFE-BLOGGER. You know, a blog where a blogger write about her /his own life everyday, I mean EVERYDAY life, like how many times of constipation they have, how many people annoys them each day and etc etc...
Why other people get so interested in some other people's life? Thats the miracle of blogging ? ? ?

04:00 ---> My nose TOTALLY blocked ! Unable to sleep =(
05:15 ---> When I can't sleep, my brain starts to generate numerous funny but weird yet unanswered questions. Study Dilemma.
06:00 ---> Slapped myself to bed.

I Want A Time Machine !!!

I am wanting so much to update my blog. Been months I never touch it.

A lot of updates, esp when it comes to food and outings with the FC-gang! BUT when I see the stack of notes to be done and to prepare for posting, I got fucked-up! Back to work ... I know!

Got a real long email from Dee today, few emails to be correct in these days. Missing her so much and I was hoping I wasn't so depress, but I do get really depress, and still depress, maybe because shes important to me haha! At times, I don't want to stress her, thus I know I will be supporting enough for her XD Because she has always been supporting =)
Her daily, weekly, monthly sms and emails always enlighten me!

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....


I wanna update my blog!!!

Gimme a time machine please!

Nearly Abandon Blog

Back from Moscow, Back from holiday, Back to home with an abandon blog lol.

Lots to do with not lots of time, I need more time, more holidays!

Longing for a new travel log ~ !!! And with lotsa updates =)

Time being, forgetting some meaningless one person ~ DAMN!

Happy Holiday ~ Yeee Haaaa

The Left One

3 exams, 2 down, 1 to go.

Wasn't a perfect but its a satisfaction exam. Insensible & Empty.

I thought I should be caring more about the progress of life taken but not the result. Sometimes too much hard work might make me thinks I deserve a better one .But well, its wasn't a bad result either.
And I should feel glad and we should feel gratitude =)

Now, room hunting time~

And because Princess D is on holiday, that is why kinda often getting her emails and her emails are always so sweet and encouraging. She must always have something to say to make up my day esp a day like today =)

The Reason

Here goes a story...

It was like 7 years ago, I met him~ And 4 years ago, he presented me "The Reason". I don't get surprise or thinking why he chose this song, because all the while he loves rock n roll. And 4 years later, today in the class when everyone was busy talking,and the only way to keep my ears silent is to hang on my mp3. My bad habit = I don't respect a song, by saying in a way that I don't notice or try to understand the meaning of a lyrics until IF I AM REALLY IN THE MOOD OF SONGS, esp when it is NOT a sentimental or love song.

And emo me today~ I listened to the lyrics carefully for the very first time for this song ~ "The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something
I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Perhaps the person who sang this song, he was trying to send the message but the dumb and happy me that time, never notice, or maybe I am not even care listening to what he is singing or who he is singing to. But after listening to the lyrics, I do feel sorry. I can't say a reason why, its just a feeling deep inside for a special friend like him. And I tell myself ; Let the past be a past. Thats how we live on everyday =)
Am not a superwoman who is able to live up with plenty expectations. I do feel.

One day someone asked me, Can you define LOVE? Thats a very tricky question.
I told ; When you are 18, LOVE is excited. When you gets older, LOVE is a routine life: someone you can live with, someone you can share, and someone you can tolerate living with EVERYDAY. That is the circle of love.
Do you get tachy when you meet someone you like for the first time? 2nd, 3rd... 10th??? YES, definitely!!!
Do you get tachy after 3 years??
Do you get excited waiting someone to be home, waiting his call, waiting his sms, waiting for dinner, or waiting for the next meet???
Do you feel the way you SHOULD like how you felt for the very first time you met him?

Somebody said ; An eternal love, is when the couple able to fall in love in each other again and again, their love life don't get bored or suck up~ How you fall in love to the SAME person AGAIN and AGAIN?

I don't really buy the love quotes showed online because I felt that, there is not a must that everyone fits to the quotes. Besides, even if we know the real theory of love, BUT so what? We are not following, and in fact its beyond control. Its something uncertain. Who can guarantee and promise forever love? Even I can't promise one!

So what should we do?

Live for every single possible day. Do something that you makes your life worth living and appreciate each other.
Do not afraid to love. One second,One word might change many things in your life.
When I don't know what is this real little fragile love thing, I tell myself for not seeking the answer but to live with the love life. It is more important to live with what you love doing.
And here, I would really ask you to appreciate someone you should before it gets too late! ~ Esp your closest person. You might not be surprise if your best friend turn out to be your last lover!









Ooowwww.. This is officially the FIRST sensitive thoughts I poured in my this not very old blog =)

And well, thats not the end of the post YET~
Today is Jamie's Bday and as usual, dinner + bday cake =) My message to her ; Happy Bday & All the best! And have faith in our friendship.
We did not manage to snap any nice pictures but of course there are always at least FEW.
Don't ask me why the bday girl is not in the picture~ All is that we do need a better camera =)
Happy Birthday!

The Sweetest Smile

"Everything that lives, lives not alone, nor for itself"

I got this picture from Michelle's gallery and first person I thought of is you.

Thank you for the friendship and thank you for being my soul mate, greatest friend ever =) You have every reason why I chose you and trust in you. You make my friendship worthwhile. Thousand miles away,solving & sharing problems together merely through sms-es and emails. You never make me feel I am wrong, or I am a fool when I did something bad or failed in doing something, you never make me feel weak when I lost my direction, you never spend a second thinking, why am I doing that, and all you gave me is support. Telling me how confident you are on me. Your faith makes me stronger, the distance makes our friendship grow fonder.

Missing you heapsssss~ Can't wait to see you, dracula-ing with you late late night on the bed, going meal together with a must-dish fish, spending hours in coffee bean, going for movies, missing your first sweetest smile when you see me, and our warmest hugs! Stay pretty & sweetest always k =)

Love by Heart, Feel by Distance ~ Love you babe!!! XD

p.s : Pray Hard =) Send me all the luckssss!

A Mother's Day

Mom and Dad were reading in the den
Mom said, "I'm gonna go to bed, it's late."
She went to the kitchen to make three
School lunches another night in a mother's day.
Put the cereal bowls out for breakfast,
Set the coffee maker for 6:00am;
Sewed a loose button on brother's shirt for him;

Checked sister's math homework, sent a note to the teacher,
Added eggs to the grocery list;
Started a load of wash, made sure the doors were locked,
Put water in the puppy's dish;
Wrote a cheque to the children's piano teacher,
Turn the dishwasher on;
And Dad called out, "Honey what's takin' you so long?"

Have I ever thanked you for everything you've done?
Now all that I can say is, "I love you Mom."

Hung some art on the refrigerator door and
Headed up the stairs;
Kissed all the children and helped Sister comb her
Wavy golden hair.
Washed her make-up off and turned on the bath;
Lay down in the moon soft light
And kissed dad goodnight.

Have I ever thanked you for everything you've done?
Now all that I can say is, "I love you Mom."

Thank you for nursing me through all those colds and fevers;
Thank you for believin' in me when they were no other believers.

And it's never too late to say, "I love you Mom."




Pretty & Young Mummy =) How can I forget my playful puppy? LOL
Cutieee Pieeeeeeee XD

Happy Mother's Day, Mum =)

Tags

Miss Ching Mun, this gotta be hard I tell you haha ~ I don't really know what tag is, and I see many people around me "tagging", so maybe I should get a try too ~ But the toughest is to list the 8 ppl I wanna tag at the end LOL.
Here it goes.

Got a tag from Ching Mun

The Rules

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.

2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.

3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.

4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

Random Fact 1
Determine, Discipline & Bloody Frank which I think its bloody cruel and bad.

Random Fact 2
Things I hate the most = People nagging me @ repeat word/question more than 1 time.
And there goes my 2 favourite words : "Anything" & " See How First".

Random Fact 3
Things I never stop doing = Traveling & Eating. And I put expectation on it.
And I don't deny I love shopping. And I accept complains from my bros & sis about my over time-consuming shopping activities.

Random Fact 4
My biggest achievement = Parents happy to have a doctor at home. And I love my job.

Random Fact 5
My Pyscho = Guilty for being a no good grand-daughter (I can't do much because I am not able to). Missing them is a routine.

Random Fact 6
I fear I pray. Beliefs strengthen my soul. Master my own destiny is what I call Life.

Random Fact 7
Insect I fear most is Butterfly because it flies and lands on my flower hair band.

Random Fact 8
Listen to many, Speak to a few. Thats the best way to protect myself.

The toughest thing...People I wanna tag :
1) Irene
2) Bret
3) Goku
4) Kelvin
5) Eddy
6) Amy
7) LCFu
8) Yau Chai
Randomly I picked 8 ~ Are they responsive???!!?? Haha ~

Talking About Cars

What Is Your Dream Car?
When such question being asked,I am sure many of us will list numbers of different varieties of luxury cars we dream for. But how many years do you have to earn enough to get yourself a real dream car?
As for me, I guess many years =) The higher you expect, the longer it takes.
But there are most lucky people in the world having their dream car once they get their ass off from the secondary school. And even if its not their dream car, BUT they have at least something to drive on, they don't have to wait for buses or metro. Well for people like us, like me studying abroad, I guess that will nvr happen to me, Yeah I have to take buses, metro and walk LOL. Everyday. Unlike the Mr. Mr. Mr. Car back home!

Dd Mr.Benz ,R Mr. Kia, B Mr. Honda Wannabe

My bros are damn lucky having their own car once they started colleges ( esp when they have a daddy who knows well about car, whom dislike proton). But I don't get jealous, I don't get unhappy because I know he definitely get me one if I were to study in Mal.

And today I dreamed something real bad. Awaken with unknown tears & fear. Quickly I wanted to call home, but due to some reasons, I have to wait till evening.So,I told mum about it and instead she told me, everything will be fine and its a good news instead. Yeah, again they bought a car.( Thats the good news?? No lor... )
And the trick is to tell me the car belongs to me when I am in Mal, thus I have to spend a little lesser to help to pay on loan ( Hah Hah ~ Thats the trick! I know you dad!) LOL. Too bad I am not dumber. Keke =)

But today mum made up my day =)

Perhaps am thinking too much, but getting 3 cars in 3 years sounds a bit crazy ~ I hope for lesser shocking news back home about new shops or cars, BUT if got new house, I WANT!!!
There is no way to repay your parents, the only way is to live your life fullest.
And be good kids, do all your studies & do not complain ~ Clear Bros??!!?? Play less on new "useless" gadgets, stick your butt to the chair and open eyes widely and STUDY!!!



How badly I wish to be home ~ Will I regret on my US 2009 plan???!!??

Update from comments : This car picture is not my dream car. Do I look so OLD? Haha ~ Only my dad loves driving it!

Run Away From My No More Cozy Room

How I wish I am alone for many reasons.
Noises that wake me up from sleep, noises that distract my studies, noises that interrupt my privacy and noises that continue noises after midnight. And don't be surprised that noises can be created by just flipping a few pages of papers, by closing the door and from walking steps. Don't ask me if thats a gorilla nearby?

I am praying to have a better sleep tonight & a fresh new morning tomorrow. How badly I wish my sleep will not be distracted in the middle of night ~~~ Bad things always happen when you have not enough sleep. No mood? Can't study? Feeling nausea in the metro? Can't concentrate in class? Migraine & Frustrated!!??!! And I always get sick.

So people, please remember to get enough sleep and do not study all over the night (IF its not a MUST =p) LOL

But one thing, noises do not distract my appetite!
Almond Banana Pancakes with chocolate syrup + cinnamon toppings for brunch =)

I Miss Him

Almost 2 years back by now, hes gone.Time can never be rewind, He is always in my heart ~
God, bring away my guilts & please strengthen my soul.
We miss you, We love you =)



And hes a cute grandpa =)

Someone I Missed Badly

Question Of Every Second In My Mind

What is Death? Never there is a definite answer!!!

Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.

Thus, start appreciating every single one beside you, especially those who loves you =)

I miss my grandpa badly, still, always in my thoughts & I am not able to bear (IF) any other coming shocking news abt death when I am so so far from home. I hope the old ones stay healthy always =)

80 more days to be home...











Regardless to various of religion, one basic concept is that we believe the existence of God.
When you fear, You pray =)

And the funny part abt this post, Do you want to know when you will be dying? Haha ~ Check this out!
Death Clock

Routine Life~

I don't know why, lately I've less time for blogging. Perhaps I don't want to blog. Haha. Maybe I've always got more important things to do or more things to work on, like copying notes than start typing a post here. I don't know why there are so many people get popular through blogs but well, I don't think that will happen to me, because I have a pretty routine life in Moscow. If everyday is holiday, everyday I can travel all around, I guess its not hard to be popular through blog since I like to write and read too. And in fact things I like to do like reading novels, I don't have time for it. Nah, I know its all crap, its all just my own bloody excuses! I've got more and more lazy to upgrade my own personal life and putting too much time in my study and career. Even if I browse online, its all about diseases or things connected to my studies. Yeah boring... What a humdrum life I have! But seeing every blogger in my list updating their post at least few times a week made me a little of envy. But the fact is, actually I have no information to blog on! Thats my prob. I bet it will be really uninteresting seeing my post about stress study life or about my bloody lecturers, thus I really have to say, I have nothing to share. Hah! And I am not fancy about taking pictures all the time, unlike years ago, bringing camera everywhere, snap each and every interesting I see, but now, nah~ LAME!

So basically, the 2 damn weeks gone by and everything has come to the end ( I don't have to remind myself, its all just the beginning). So everyone got through the cycle successfully and as what I've mentioned earlier, we don't wanna see that god damn teacher ever again in our life~! But I know, things we don't want always come near. Thus, taking all the challenges in life now is like learning and teaching ourselves again and again, and perhaps we will learn smarter and I always believe in process of life, more is always better than less =) The best word to describe her : Bitchy. I don't buy her even she seems better to me or to us this semester! Nah, "touch wood" ~ Exam yet to come! LOL =)

Since after the cycle, all of us, especially me get addicted of finding ways to treat myself better like sleeping for 15 hours a day, having good meal outside. Need not to mention about Mcd, food like sushi, korean food ~ Gosh... How can I find way to treat myself better! Eat Eat Eat ~ Yeah $$$ needed haha. I wish I have more to spend on food! But only today I am feeling better, been sick for 7 days since the therapy cycle. Fever at 38.6C for 5 days. And associated with cough, flu, head dizziness, headache, chest muscles pain. My feeling being a patient : Terrify! Had an injection for reducing my temperature, thats the most most most painful injection in my life ever! My tears shed. And I am so worry being infected by the patients in the hospital, when I have so low immunity, I don't wanna get superinfected. BUT how? No how. I still need to go for classes everyday! And now, PHEW... Finally I am getting better! But I hope the bad weather don't make me sick again.

So so so... I have nothing more to say and in fact my everyday life is uninteresting! Tomorrow new cycle, Neurology =) And oh yeah, am currently addicted to House MD~! I love him =) I watched 17 episodes in 2 days time~! Cool? LOL :)

A Walk To Remember

Each Spring in the little port town of Beaufort, North Carolina, when the wind smells of pine and salt and the sea, Landon Carter remembers his senior year at Beaufort High and Jamie Sullivan, the girl who changed his life.

Jamie was the last person Landon was likely to fall for. Serious and conservative, she was as far from cool as she could possibly be, and didn't care. The daughter of the town's Baptist minister, Jamie was not afraid of letting people know that her faith was the most important part of her life, even if it cost her some friends. Landon hung with the in-crowd -- an aimless, moody, reckless guy who breezed through school on looks and bravado. He had no plans, no future and no faith in himself.

One night a prank that he and his buddies set up goes terribly wrong and lands a kid in the hospital. As punishment, Landon must tutor a young student at a poor school and participate in the Drama Club's Spring play ­ two activities the principal hopes will teach him some humility. They also happen to throw him into close contact with Jamie. Clearly in over his head, Landon is forced to ask her for help.

Soon, against his own expectations, Landon finds himself falling in love with this outwardly plain girl who possesses a passion for life he never imagined possible. But it isn't easy. For reasons of her own, Jamie does everything she can to run away from romance until it becomes impossible to deny.

Being together will test everything that they believe in. Most of all, it will test the power of love and faith to transform a life into something worth living.

Love cannot endure indifference. It needs to be wanted =)

Happy Valentine's Day~!

The First Post

Weet... successfully spared an hour creating this new blog at blogspot.com. Previously, I'd been blogging in Multiply for years and year ago moved to Friendster & slowly I've owned an abandoned blog haha. Only few updates once in a few months? Month ago,my sisters & brothers start writting their own blog so this makes me wanting a new blog too at the same domain here. What's better than updates from family members,huh? (",) Hopefully after migrating the abandoned friendster blog to this new blog,my updates frequency will improve =)

*My neck gets stiffly now*

Oink, guess there is nothing much to drag on this new, very first post. Perhaps when I have leisure time, I should start designing this blog (Duh, it looks boring now I know), nah thats gonna be after a month? Soon gonna have last final paper on ОПХ (Operative Surgery) which I have no critics on it YET but this will be the first exam conducting in Russian Language =.= And consequently I have zero exam conducting in English anymore lol.

Am cravingly for holiday now Buh....