Oh MY Oh

Again and again and again.
I need to stop myself.
Feeling guilty. What's the purpose of winter sale?
I am guilty eying only on new arrival items. And bought mostly all new arrival items because they are so so so much more attractive. The worst part is that I 'felt' like I shopped for winter sales
-__- !!! but I actually didn't make use of winter sale at all.

BUT but but I did not regret because o.m.g I just love'em all.

I promised myself (now) that I am D.O.N.E with shopping, even though I have one more bloody item in my mind now. Only this one final-final-final item. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Why I am never empty-handed. Every time.

Hungry. Off ~

Oh MY

Oh My I bloody shopped again.
I don't mind the sales ending in 3 days time.
Com'on end it!

And I did something really stupid and crazy yesterday.
I stood on Moscow River for god sake.
I stood on a river. A frozen river.
It's NOT a lake or a pond peeps, a damn flowing river!
Its freaking cold outside!
Like -25C?
Peeps, don't do it when it's not cold, don't do it below -20C.
The frozen river can break ANYTIME!

Pictures gonna be up weekends =)
Going out to shopping mall again later.
And oh yeah, for the sake of Burger King.
Its like the FIRST ever Burger King in Moscow.
I don't even eat'em in Malaysia. But in Moscow, I would love to!

Salmon Dinner-Retreat

Salmon Steak with Butter Rice. Its Yummy Yummy XD

Shopping Spree vs My Job

I should be real excited with the title-above but haha I don't know myself. I am feeling usually superB normal without any excitement. January is a superB superB spending month. Bought a few lovely apparels I am totally in love with. One shopping day can finish your whole month allowance. Spending money is always easy but finding'em is rather hard.

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A bad morning news making me feeling uneasy now. The PSC proposed to extend the compulsory public service for doctors from three years to either five or ten years. Click here. This is ridiculous! The government's scholars need to work for government for 10 years as 'they' can accept and understand it because the government spent on them(it is like a contract for them) but for private students like us, I think its really unfair and they have no right of extending us just to keep us and make sure we don't work for private hospitals. But THEY are the government, said they have all the right doing whatever they want.

We do have choices. Like thinking how to keep the senior MO from not working for the private. Government can always find ways. Like giving more allowances or salary, but they rather extend the new ones. Working for long hours a day, 6-7 days a week and earning like 1 thousand dollar per month? Mcdonald's workers in the states earn better than a doctor does in Malaysia. But no matter how you disagree with them, no matter what you do, what you will do, IT IS useless. We are just a tiny-tiny lil thingy who are not suppose to voice out whatever shit. We, citizens are forever to be succumbed. We do NOT have liberty for anything. But to follow.

Once people told me, it is useless to migrate to other countries because you will never be the first citizenship in that country BUT staying in Malaysia 'as' a Chinese, I will never be treated as first citizenship too. I love my country but I am sad and disappointed.

How badly the students been complaining about the unfairness in Russia. How corrupted Russia is. Well here I would like to ask, which country is not corrupted? And is your country treating you fairly as a citizen. My answer is no. NO and NO.

SuperB Bored

Today is only the 3rd day after exam or I should say the 3rd day of my home-staying holiday. Damn it. I am bored. I am really bored. I don't know what I should do. Blogging, movie marathon, reading, baking, cooking, sleeping, outing? Or whatever shit I am not interested at. It's really cold. I don't feel like going out, I don't feel like reading, I don't feel like baking or cooking either. Too much of sleeping like 18 hours a day or more, 3-5 movies a day? Gosh... I am so so so dizzy. Hah!

And I am spider-webbed ! ! !

I can actually start reading novels or start baking new recipes but I am just so not interested doing ANY of it. Damn. I don't even have mood to blog because I have nothing to blog about. And I left my travel blog stranded since months ago. All because of this one post, Hoover Dam Nevada. You will know why if you happen to read this post in future, only IF I have the desire continuing it. I doubt if I have the determination to blog about every single city I have been to. That's a lot seriously. And in fact I don't blog really well, do I ?

I don't have a start nor an ending. So that is it till the next time I have better things to write about.

P.S ; I have like more than 70 items/apparels to give away or to throw away. I can't afford to fly everything back Malaysia. And I believe I have more to give away but just not now. I wish I know how to send them back and how I wish I have visitors from Malaysia.

Counting down

16 months ~ d'been 16 months not meeting my family. The feeling of miss and loneliness start flooding me. Especially every time after exam when I have nothing to do ~ the only full-time job is to think and think and think. Can't wait to see them in 5 months! Just fecking 5 months! I am graduating in 5 months time. I couldn't believe it myself. Been staying in Moscow for 6 years.

I have been cleaning my nest for like hours ~ I just can't believe myself. I have so so so many stuffs. I am just either gonna donate'em if anyone interested or throw them. I can't afford to fly everything back to Malaysia.

My winter break gonna end in 2 weeks time. I am thinking what to do in this 2 weeks. My first winter in Moscow. Not going anywhere but just here. And guess what I am gonna sit for another paper soon. Sucks right. Tropical disease, I really hate it. Heeeeeee. I mean I really hate the subject. And the exam will be held at the end of the first posting of my semester so meaning that I am gonna have another paper in 2 weeks winter break + 2 weeks posting, total in 4 weeks time. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Life is so empty now. The fridge is empty. The hostel is empty. My heart with emptiness and loneliness. My mind is empty too and my stomach is sooooo bloody empty. I only had a few pieces of wegdes and nuggets ~ since the last 48 hours. Hah! I can swallow an elephant now!

Heading to Ikea and grocerries. Gonna continue cleaning and blogging after this! Muah!

A New Start

A new start for me is the moment of ending every final paper of the semester. This semester is finally over. And next gonna be the final-final-final semester. Happy but sad at times. I am a girl who loves freedom. I really meant freedom! So I am not sure what's gonna happen after start working. I could not think more or blame more because I really am choosing the path myself. Being a hell-tortured doctor.

Today had my final paper Surgery. One of my favorite subject. And I love my exam today. It goes really well, excited, scary at times. MCQ was tough. Like the toughest after Physics, I had 5 years ago. When the examiner came out with a stack of papers for those who failed the MCQ, and start reading the names one by one, my heart was like gonna fall and tear apart. It was one of the scariest moment in my life. Because I thought I didn't do well. And Danbo told me he didn't too. When we both names are NOT called, I can't believe myself. We all screamed and hugged. So dramatic but its all the true moment of life lol. The oral part was pretty good. And I love my questions, I had 3 questions from Surgery, Endocrinology and Anaes hehe. Maybe my dream becoming a surgeon getting closer? Heeee. Doubt me not. But things do change.

OVER. A NEW START.

But the feeling of so near yet so far haunt my mind again and again. Regarding to the marking scheme of exams here, promise you getting a red or a blue diplome. And I didn't manage to get a red diplome because of 'an' extra 4, is like one fucking 4. And I know it clearly that its useless to get a red. But the feeling of so near yet so far strike me again. But I am proud of myself for maintaining my results with good grades. I am proud of myself getting all excellent marks in GOS exam even though I am not in the 'list' of red diplome. Studying in Russia is really EQ and mind-torturing! But again its over. Hoping that god will take away all my unwanted thinking and leave me a happy me =) Heeeeeee.

Do you remember him?
If you are my frequent reader you should know heeee.
MR. DANBO my love =p

Things that I remember right now

RIGHT NOW . . . at this very moment

I remember I just finished prophylaxis paper this morning. It was the toughest subject to study because it's full of rubbish. If you know what is health science, then you know what kind of rubbish it is. But the easiest exam to pass. Exam took long but well seriously I didn't know why I studied so hard for it and end up you can get good grades ~ how? Can't believe myself chatting with the Prof. througout the whole oral exam. But anyway, I had a good time chatting with him. Heeeee. Hes funny. So one paper down, and one more to go! Surgery! Tell you what, I actually miss studying surgery when I was studying prophylaxis paper. This surgery exam gonna be tough because it consists not only surgery but also general surgery, anaes, urology, traumatology and etc etc. But today is Saturday and I shall get a good rest (first). My legs are sooooo numb now for god knows the reason.

At this very moment, I remember hurting my leg standing 5 hours, queued for the stupid Champions League's trophy. Can't believe that I actually did that. And when I was in Barcelona, I remember seeing this trophy in the Barca stadium ~ you can take as many pictures as you want, and you dont have to queue of course. I wish it wasn't the festival that I went, but the match ManUtd vs Chelsea. I wish!!! But what to do I am fated to be a gunners. Heeee. Oh and I miss my long hair.
2nd thing in my mind right now. Some virgin photos ~ photos that I never blog about. Last month's interbatch game. And the photos how I celebrated my birthday 2007 in the most romantic and superB interior restaurant ~ 22 sky louge. A superB place! Food was nice, drink awesome but very pricey. One of the best interior restaurant in Moscow =)
Next in my mind ~ RSMU Annual Dinner 2009. Only my 2nd time attending annual dinner throught 6 years so it is something to be remember.
4th thing in my mind is I remember myself NOT having a lot of pictures with my groupmates formally ~ in the hospital. Rarely rarely rarely. I am gonna bring my lousy digi-camera to hospital for every posting next semester ( final semester! ). Auwww... I remember his blue eyes, my blue-eye surgeon =p Taken when I was in 3rd year medical school. Konstantin is the only thing and person I remember througout the year LOL =p
Operative Surgery Class 4th year. One of the cutest teacher on earth. He loves to laugh but only when you joke with him. Or else he looks boring ~ so play a joke with him! And he walks like a penguin and really really really slow. If you happen to walk behind him, well you gotta follow him because it will be like so akward if you pass through him right and make him thinks that, I actually walk too slow. Heeeee.
Last but not least, I wanna go snowboarding ! ! ! Hence . . .
Haha. I didn't remember how much joy I had few years back but I remember his hair. And one of my favorite snowboarding pics, even though I look FAT. Haha! You will never see Kenny with this hair style anymore Heeee. But he looks good right! And omg omg omg, I can't wait for the snowboarding this year. Its gonna be my final year in Moscow and hence I will really make full use of it. And I have plenty of time. Because sadly I am not going to travel this winter. My first winter staying in Moscow, how sad right. But what to do. I spent too much during US trip last summer and also needa save money to Siberia summer trip with my groupmates! And also euro trip with my mum. Soooo . . . I am gonna stuck in Moscow for 2-3 weeks before new semester starts.

I am so hungry now. Off~

Your Best Companion

Supper is what you need.

Home-made Roti Canai serves with chicken curry.
Not forgetting . . . Teh Tarik =)

This is my first time making roti canai and turned out to be really yummy. With simple recipe and ingredients. Here's the recipe I found online:
3 cups flour
1 - 1.5 cups water
1 tablespoon margarine
salt to taste
2 tablespoons condensed milk
1 tablespoon cooking oil
Extra margarine

Method :
1. Mix well water, salt and condensed milk
2. Add (1) into the flour bit by bit while kneading manually
3. Add in cooking oil
4. Add in margarine (use ghee or shortening to substitute if you have)
5. Knead to form a soft dough. Leave it covered with a damp cloth for about 30 minutes.
6. Divide the dough into 10 portions
7. Coat with margarine so that they won't stick to each other. Leave to rest for NOT less than 2 hours
8. Spread them on a smooth surface to form a very thin layer. Fold the four sides into the middle and fry.

Enjoy !

International Ice Sculpture Festival

A space-themed festival of ice sculptures kicks off in Moscow - International Ice Sculpture Festival. I visited the festival 2 days ago despite the weather, it was below -20C and I can't believe that I went out for such a craze outing hehe. I have never really complain about getting freeze outdoor esp when it comes to photography. I have a lot of patience while Danbo enjoying his session but NOT this time. I actually freaked out and told him that I couldn't stand for even 1 more second! He is always so indisputable and you can hardly see him angry, hes always with good mood LOL hehe. Contenting him is like a piece of cake. Shhhhhh.

So, we didn't take a lot of photos and in fact I didn't even care to look for more sculptures and I didn't have a lot of fun. I can only remember my feet almost torn off. I read online about the festival, taking place from 4th until 8th of January and thus without second thought I told Danbo ; I wanna go! Because I've never seen an ice sculpture throughout my 6 years life in Moscow ( to be exact all my life! Heeee.) and he quickly agreed to go and again despite the weather!

These astronauts are my favorite sculptures!

I became wiser a lil slower, second thought how can they demolish the sculptures if the weather gonna be constantly below sub-zero, am I right? And its an outdoor exhibiton, in a garden, why whould they wanna demolish all these sculptures when the festival ends by 8th? Of course nobody would destroy'em! Foolish me... It would be a fun trip if the weather wasn't that bad. And when I was there, the Russian team is still building the sculpture so I guess maybe by end of January/February, there are more to see. Plus I am in exam break for god sake! Heeee. So I went for a total-fooled-outing!

But anyway let me tell you about the festival ; International sculptors came all the way to Moscow building sculptures up to five meters tall, among them the legendary rockets Soyz and Vostok ( by Russians of course). There are also the heroes of Star Wars and fantastic galaxies. At night the composition turns more colorful, as different lights create a special space atmosphere. The festival located at Cosmo Park, VDHX. You gotta pay for the entrance fee. Talking about paying... I can actually go for free after the actual festival date right? Haha! Again the ice sculptures will stay there for at least 1-2 more months due to the temperature. So peeps, don't be hurry. Wait for a better weather and perhaps for a free entrance? Heeee. I MIGHT go again - many sculptures are still in the process.

It wasn't a good outing, and I was disappointed. The disappointment wasn't totally because of the weather, the festival wasn't as good as, as grand as how the news'd mentioned. Its normal that the russians exaggerate issues.

I don't know why they placed these stupid animals on it! Maybe the tiger can scare off the kids so that they wouldn't climb onto the slippery sculpture? Maybe LOL =p

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So, after an-hour-of-fast visiting, we went to the center for shopping-spree (again!). I just shopped 2 days before past 2 days lol =p Well like any other winter sale, I do shop. Not a lot but never empty-handed. And shopping is like my life, or to be exact used to be my life. I don't know what happen to me lately but I found myself having some shopping disorders. Haha! I still remember how my sisters and bros complained about my shopping-attitude, and they hate to go shopping with me because they needa wait too long and walk from morning till night. I will only be home when the shops close. But thank god I have Danbo now, he does all his jobs hehe!

I used to love shopping, I used to love all the apparels and thingy I bought home, trying them all once I got home, getting excited about it. But ended up I abandoned them inside my wardrobe ~ the same old Kubi Disorder. That was okay. NOW I am even worst. I truly enjoyed the shopping moment, truly madly deeply I do but I keep them aside once I got home and the worst part is I didn't get excited at all. I am excited only when I am getting'em but not anymore when I own'em! What happen to me? I am a lil worry myself. Or maybe just because exams are near and I get a lil stress after 2 destress-shopping-spree? Damn. I hate this feeling! Excitement no more.

Anyway, checking out my wish-list. I always buy things I didn't want to. I wonder why. I wanted a knee length black boots but I ended up with 2 ankle boots. And I wanted a black wool coat, but I bought a colorful coat (again!). I seldom wear black. Yeah seldom! I love colors too much Heeee. Conclusion I told myself many times I shouldn't make a wish list because it will be forever unfulfilled. And one thing I dislike about shopping in Moscow, is that you have to worry buying the same piece of apparel as other Malaysians in Moscow LOL =p To me it doesn't matter as long as I love that piece and it looks good on me! And rarely people will buy the same thing because I like odd-stuffs. But it happened once!

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11 more days to exam! Forget about food and shopping, at least for the near 2 weeks. Then I can have all my life back! OMG. What a lengthy post. Needa get back to study =) Night peeps!

p.s : I complained but I still do take 'a few' pictures hehe!

Happy New Year 2010

I stayed home for New Year.

Been celebrating New Year eve at Kremlin, the center for 4 years in a row and this year I chose to stay home because I don't enjoy the Russian crowd plus those lousy fireworks =p So, I stayed home! And here : One of the best fireworks 2010 I found in Youtube. I do enjoy watching fireworks from Hong Kong & Sydney too.

All my life ; I made no resolutions for the New Year.The habit of making plans, of criticizing, sanctioning and molding my life, is too much of a daily event for me. But it wouldn't be New Year's if I didn't have regrets. So say it : I have regrets!

Would you be mad if I said Happy Studying instead of Happy New Year ? Heeeeee.

Kubi-Quote of the Year ; The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate =) So, peeps Happy New Year 2010 ! ! ! Have a blast!

I am gonna love my new year !

Thank god for all the blessings these years and do bless me with many many good returns =) And lots of luck in exams! Give me unlimited colorful days =) Wooopeeee . . . Exam gonna be in 2 weeks time.